There are days when not being in school pisses me off beyond belief. To the point that it is driving me bat shit crazy. And it is also causing some pretty crazy shit in my personal life. While my closest friend get ready to walk the stage this year in their own convocations, what do I have to show for the past 3 years post-grad? Absolutely fuck all.
Sure I scored 2310 on the SATs and also finished writing an entrance exam to a prestigious medical school in Poland, to which I was shortlisted. But really? What have I become? Certainly not the man I wanted to be when I thought of what my life would be like when I was 16.
5 years ago, I didn't even really know what I wanted to do. And now I am seriously just thinking "Fuck it. I'll go live in random countries for a year at a time, and see what the hell this ridiculous world has to offer." New Zealand is looking pretty damn great. As is Poland, Ukraine, Switzerland, Austria, Ireland, Kenya, and last, and certainly not least, Brazil.
While this may scare the living shit out of me, I am debating this like crazy. New Zealand has some pretty nutso people. They surf, they jump off of bridges, go hang gliding, and live with more sheep than people. These guys seem pretty cool. Plus, the accents. My dear Jesus, the accent would drive me up the wall swooning. Can I see myself going bungee jumping? Probably not, would I do it? FUCK YES
So, after basically sabotaging my own relationship today, with a guy that has fewer quirks than expected... Other than loving Bieber, One Direction, and the Kardashian's, I feel like ass. So I am looking into moving across the world, swearing off sex, and also finding my own peace. The guy will still be there. He always is. He is too nice to me, and all I want him to do is beat the shit out of me and tell me I am fucktard. Cause I am.
Canada just makes me angry. By angry, I mean I make Hiroshima-Nagasaki look like a wet firecracker.
Plus, they have curling clubs in New Zealand. I would kick some ass.
Who knows, I'll probably be stuck slinging lattes for the next 40 years. I'll retire with my three dogs, named Mojito, Martini, and Sangria. I'm an alcoholic.
Namaste
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